BITTER SWEETNESS

I tried to look flawless
In front of you as much as I can

Why are you still not with me,
Seems like all in vain.

In this dark frosty night
Yes, my heart want is you
Somewhere, us-together 

But my dear
Why can't I feel anything
You seem like a dead land
My prettiness turned into embarrassment

You are alluring to me
Did you drop the thread
The thread of love
either you never picked it up 

You must have to know
How obsessed I am with you
I understand that your theory
Must be different, Ideology....

But, till when only I am going to
Going to light which we have create
All together

It beats fast around you
Do you only want physical thing,
Or am I getting it wrong 

Well, 

Let me be silent
Let me be pretty distant from you
Let me bury my desires
Let me kill the obsession
Let me choose an alternative

-to escape mentally from meetings
Let me die a bit

You are pleasant to my soul
Always, all time

A difference makes me realise
That, I am rejected indirectly
Probably as he has guts,
How to make someone fall in love, 
without being in love with them

See this paper and my thoughts are being friends here
Am losing my mind

As it was actually unacceptable for me to 
To know that someone rejects my love
And if it is not rejected 
Then accepted in a separate way

How I didn't realize that
That you were actually looking at me
When I was waiting for you there
When you saw the bright light in my eyes
My heart became sick and heavy
Unaware of a reason

When I was there just to walk with you 5 min 
And waited more than 30 min for this
That I rejected others to accept you
but my dear
You were someone else
As I got to know, that you are someone
who is like a magnet to love
Key to my heart
You know it all, how I ignored this

But this the time,
Moving on is an aspect 
And I got it

Just to accept-
That you're not accepting me
It's just hurt
My expectations lead me to hurt
Have a great life ahead sir

The pain is having no contact with the person you're still in, who at one point in time sent you texts that would make your heart melt. And now, you can only love them in silence from a distance, slowly being forced to close a chapter you never wanted to end....

-10:41 PM | 06 December 2022

-Venus Magroliya